A-Z: Wistfully Wishing & Celebrate the Small Things

This time, I want to do things backward. I usually start with Arlee Bird's A to Z Challenge, or do it together with another blog hop. Today, I want to start with VikLit's Celebrate the Small Things.

These things I'm celebrating from this past week:

1. Don't laugh, but I'm celebrating my horrible interview for supervisor at my job. It was early in the morning, I rambled, and it was just... sad. I'm celebrating this because it was an experience. I hadn't had an interview in nearly 11 years. Also, I don't think I could handle being a supervisor right now as it seems to take very little to get me feeling overwhelmed lately.

2. You can laugh at this one: I'm celebrating my hope to be lazy this weekend. Tears wish to fall from my eyes with this hope. Would I be bored? Darned tootin'! But I'd be happily bored.

3. My book signing was a lot of fun. Thanks all you well wishers. Saw some people I hadn't spoken to in a while, and it was nice to see people who already had a signed book come support me. Here are some pics:

The woman way in the back is an old friend I hadn't seen or spoken with in about 5 years. I forgot to get a good picture of her! Another friend didn't like getting pictures, and another one felt she wasn't dressed right. I tell you about folks! :)

Now to express why I'm Wistfully Wishing:

Maybe I'm just going through one of those moods. Or maybe I'm at the brink of another pivot in life. But I'm longing to go that next step. I've gotten my ninth review on Amazon, have completed a first book signing, am trying to connect with another Christian bookstore in Oakland, and my book is on a few bookstore shelves. But, it all seems to be going so slow.

I know, I've posted about it and preached to friends about wanting things to go faster than they should and the need to be patient and not rush. I'm going to say it anyway!

I'm Wistfully Wishing to get a publicist. I went to a publicists/marketing meeting with the Northern California Book Publicity & Marketing Association (soon to get a user friendly name), where they spoke about how to get onto the lecture circuit. It was an informative and somewhat encouraging get together. Well, I was speaking with the president of this association, Kat Engh, and asked her about getting a publicist. She recommended I speak with Isabella Michon who's been working in this market for 30 years.

Isabella and I spoke for a bit and exchanged info. And here comes the wistful part. Of course it costs, and it's quite expensive, even though she's less expensive than many publicists.

Then that fear kicks in (oh how I hate the devil with his limitless supply of fears to dole out!) with, "I shouldn't even think about spending this kind of money," "You should be able to do it all by yourself," "It's not going to help anyway. If it was meant for your dreams of big sells and full-time writer to come true, it would've happened by now." Then there's the kicker, "If you'd get people to pay what they owe you, you'd be able to pay for 4 to 6 months of publicity easy."

Only, my Christian heart prevents me from making demands on money I freely lent. As it says in the Bible, if you lend money, do so with no expectation of repayment. (I must inform you who do not know the Word, that the Bible also says that the borrower is slave to the lender, and that as a Christian you must repay debt.) I feel I can request one friend to make some payment, but the rest are family and I freely lent with little or no expectation of repayment.

Thanks for listening to my rant, whine and wistful wishing. I will move toward this endeavor and keep my ears and prayers open to God to see if that is the direction I should go in. As with the job promotion, if it is meant to happen, it will. If not, it won't, and hopefully with no financial loss.